finaly, it's been forever since I last updated this thing. well, with all the trips to Tennessee and Georgia and JAPAN! Wow! It's been so much traveling, i'm surprised I even have time to train for the swim team... i don't know what happened to my other friends, but they were annoying and we weren't even really friends so i decided to just drop them and continue with the one of my other friends with a common insterest as mine, anyway, i'm going into a new school and there will be so many more people i wont even have to deal with the annoying pests of the past! Ja ne!

Arg! Well..I hate school! Um...where to begin... a hot dude noticed me...god I cannot believe i just said that

Um...

Well...He did I have SO much history to catch up on

Hence the "history"

One of my friends is drinking, cutting herself, and thinking about suicide, as if it couldn't already get worse

And a dance is coming up! and i'm totally stressed out! What should I do!? I mean, i cant
hold it it, but i can't let the school know, cause they already want to kill her [I already saw the plans for her and a couple
other student's death, long story] and even if i did know who to tell
what if they approach her, so that she gets so stressed out she kills herself! WAY TOO MUCH PREASSURE!! >

hate...it's comsuming my mind, like a computer virus consumes data. Eating away at me, raging on and on, being unaware of what to do. I struggle trying to keep my mother and sister in line. Although they're older than me, I tend to be more mature than them, most of the time. My days, nights, and hours are full of taking care of my mom, the animals, cleaning up Rachel's junk, and cleaning in general, then there's a few moments i have to eat, sleep, and home work, perhaps an hour on a non-school day if i'm lucky, on a school day, 6 hours, i think school is my resting place. Despite all the mental work, and physical work it takes from going to the first floor up two floors through flight of stairs. Sprinting to every class, I almost always spend my time, however, writing, it cools my mind and calms my soul, which has been raging unusually wild lately. I can't tell what's happening, all the change, me buying my first pair of jeans, and getting a second ear pierced or what...then again... my "other" side has been trying to get out. My weaker, peaceful, calmer, more genlte side, which i try to keep locked up has finally broken free. I much more prefere my Aries way! The way the stars declare I am, that would be my "original" side. During constant bullying I got my "other" side, though now I'm moving back into my "original" side. It's much more powerful, physically, mentally, emotional, and spiritually, what more could you ask for? It's the arrogant sid eof me that has a right to be arrogant. It's the side full of self confedence and it's the very same side that tells me what's going to happen tomorrow, and the next day, it's the power, the magic the "original" side of me that unleashes my creativity, and if I keep up this side, I will become great. This is a very promising side...VERY PROMISING! any way, I've got to go clean up some more! Talk whenever I get another chance! ^.^ JA NE! Minna-san!

I haven't been able to sleep for five, going on to six days now; and since school's started I've been having to take something that's supposed to replace my energy...it's vitemin water it's flavor is "energy" and it actually does give me energy using natural resources (not sugar) without all the calories, and all the vitemins are healthy too! Anyway... Although I've been able to watch more Late-Night Anime and work more on my Guild in Neopets (sn on Neopets is Magical_rainbow_girl ) Though, I do have EXCELLENT NEWS! I have the limited edition faux-leather hollowed out book that holds the R.O.D. TV series DVDs!!! I have the first one and the second one (the only ones they've released in the U.S.) I haven't finished them yet! Also, I've got a second piercing!! I used to just have one hole in each ear for one ear ring. Now I've got two in each one!!! My family (my mom and sister, cause my dad's dead) call it a Double Ear Piercing, my Sister and mom have three in each of their ear, I could've had three in each ear in fourth grade, but I was too chicken! AND I FINALLY GOT THE SECOND PIERCING! It's so cool! Now I can REALLY cosplay Hatsuharu from Fruits Basket! Here's a picture of him, notice the ear rings!! Hyku-san agrees he's a total bishonen, but you know, he's a year or so older than I! ^.6 You really should see his "Dark Haru" side as the Sohmas call it. He's much cooler! I love his split personality! It's very kawaii! Ja ne!

I touched the Orb of Forlorn Hope. No, it's nothing like the Mirror of Forlorn Hope from Yu Yu Hakusho. The first time I used the Orb was when I wanted to miss out on my school's Gym Fitness test, which EVERYONE hates. At the time I didn't know how it worked, but I sensed a magic to it and asked for it, rubbing it, like they did to the lamp in aladdin. I go my wish, but it wasn't like ANYTHING I had hoped it would be. It cursed my body to spontaniously brake my ankle! It snapped! Not even a reason for it to happen! Though I did miss the fitness test, I also missed the rest of Gym that year, it was only two weeks it was broken. But my cunning skills easily made me slide that by the teachers and they thought it was broken for much longer, I love my ability to heal quickly!  The second time I used it, anger had blinded me and I hadn't thought of the consequences. At the time I was hating my father so much, I said, "I wish my father would die!" and sure enough, he did, in two weeks, he had gone from the healthiest man to just turn 50, with one of the strongest bodies, to instant death. They orb didn't need a sacrifice for that one, the pain from the death of a family member was enough, the orb was sure of that much. Though what it didn't realize is that his death actually made me stronger. I had accidentally used the orb yesterday, and guess what?...My Soccer Team has been CANCELLED! I almost cried at that, since my life revolves so much around soccer, acutally, it doesn't, but i like to pretend it does, Soccer gets out my anger attacks and helps me to focus my energies towards something other than my aura and pychic power! Then I heard that one of my aquantinces, because I'm not her friend, had been rushed to the hospital. A reactoin in her throat to something. Then it hit me, I had touched the Orb to put it away, then i thought to myself, I didn't take the orb out, I would've remembered if I had, I keep it with other cursed items. It was destiny, for me to take the orb in my hands and hate. The hate consumed me and I had touch the orb bringing near death to my  friend with my sacrifice of a soccer team! I guess I would say it was bound to happen, for me to accidentally use the orb to fufil a wish i didn't need. I hadn't like my friend at the time, i still dont like her, for her crimes against my group, legal crimes, nontheless, crimes. I had wished for her to be tormented and tortured, I said that she would be the bringing of her own demise, I even asked for here to be in true tornment because of herself. My mom said something about her not drinking enough liquids and that was one of the many reasons she had to be rushed to the hospital. Said said torture and pain for her, not death, I just hope she makes it, because I've seen thousands of deaths, even millions, and I think my heart is changing, Perhaps I wont need soccer to take out my agression, if not, then I'll need it to take away the saddness and pain the wrath of depression I just I hope I hit it before it hits me!

it's my full day back! I've got a kimono, japanese candy, and whole bunch of other stuff.
I'm glad to be home, I don't have to put up with everything fried! THEY HAVCE FRIED
OREOS AND TWINKIES DOWN THERE!  I declare that that isn't right! It's gross in my
opinion. I tried friend pickle and fried green tomatoe. (Don't they NOT fry anything?)
Anyway, tomorrow I'm going to Borders if I don't start a tornadoe with my anger! After
strength training today my mom spent 20 minutes talking to her friend, that kept me waiting
a VERY LONG TIME! I got majorly angery, the winds started raising drastically until she finally
came over and we went home. On the way back I told her how much stronger I got. She started
ranting about  it and how dangerous my strength was getting, "that's too dangerous you shouldn't
be getting that strong that fast!" she yelled at me. I tried to block out her negativity. So what if
I'm getting stronger, I'm already strong than my mom and my instructor complemented me on
how my strength surpassed the others there. I don't see what's so wrong with going from 30lbs as a
weight to 50 lbs. I'm only lifting 20 extra pounds. And anyway what would my mom know about
strength? She works out, as in walking! I do weights and thousands of other things! My Master is
crunches, her master is Human Resources!  Two different worlds and two different spieces. According
to her many of my habits are "unheathly for a girl your age." So what if my room is a total disaster
and I have to either jump or leap in order to get anywhere? It hasn't been a problem so far and people
shouldn't be going in my room anyway! The heating in the computer room surpasses any other room.
I'm the only one in the family who can stand it for hours without having to go down stairs. I'm not
human and I'm not gonna tell my mom, cause knowing her she'd take me to a psychologist and they'd
all think I was crazy. when really, I'm NOT! If power over wind isn't enough to prove I'm not human
then what about all the insane conditions humans can't stand and I can? Heat! Cold! You name it! I
sleep only 4 hours at most and I feed off human energies. Or what about the fact I can improve my
strength so fast it's considered dangerous in the human world! It'a basic for me! Lifting from 30 lbs. to 50 lb.s in one day! Going from lifting 50lbs. to lifting  90lbs. it's all basic 1+1=2 to me! Apparently, though,
my mom fails to see how much strong both mentally, psychially, and emotionally I am. I didn't cry
at my father's funeral, in fact I've rarely cried over it, and I'm not in the denial stage, 'cause I know he's
dead and never coming back, I know deep down inside he didn't die from a heart attack! I can predict
the next thing in my life as if it were a predictable movie and I've learned to always trust my instincts
because I always regret it when I don't listen to them, they're always right and haven't let me down so far!

I've discovered a new band called S.H.E. it's dead hard to find information about them, but I've found a good site!
The site is really cool, it's here
got to go! Adios Amiga(Amigo)

So... when was the last time I wrote, probably a millenium or so ago... any way... I'm still in Georgia! Bored to death! I wish I was still at Emiko's house, my Aunt's Friend, she's Japanese. She gave me a Kimono, 22 play hankercheifs (You make mini kimonos out of them), Origami paper, Japanese Candy, A couple of words in Hiragana and Katakana, and a bunch of other stuff! Well, I'm teaching my aunt & uncle to do web pages! Bye!

Sorry, i was camping out in the wilderness for a week! I went caving and rock climbing and fell 80 ft with no bad effects oh and i created a flash flood because i got furious and acciedently on purposed smashed a rock thata was actually part of a dam! wel.. i've got to go and pack for Georgia and then Washington D.C.! $ weeks tops!